here is always vanishing – ariadne randall

(2014–)

a large intermedia work centering recorded sound, hiav is a web of records, poems and images on memory and presence.

much was difficult before coming out as trans, including releasing the solo records i was continually drafting: they were documents of a voice and body which felt other, not my own. now, this veil lifted, i thread present and past towards an autobiography of affinities, a personal history in sound. far from an archival project, it is an ongoing weaving. a hybrid prose and poetry manuscript lies at the hidden center.

hiav takes its title from a poem read in and lending its name to a reading series about childhood memories of place, organized with friends in a brooklyn loft. an adapted form of this poem later appeared prominently in ghost, by and with asa & wayne horvitz, ariadne randall, carmen quill, which premiered in vienna and the netherlands, was supported by the muziekgebouw and het hem, and persists as a digital artwork (more).

here is always vanishing chapters to date appear below. chapters vary in length from singles to double albums. numerical h catalog numbers proceed forward in time; alphabetic h catalog numbers proceed backwards in time. inquire for details.

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